Finally Finding My Own Way
Written at Urban Recovery Nov 24, 2019
By Jodi, Megan, Toni and Jack
Written from the prompts:
What I need to do to be independence is…..
It’s hard to be not in control because..
Spoken word intro
What makes now better than yesterday if tomorrow is just the same?
My heart says love answers all forgiveness
Now falling hard, wow what a cry for help
Where are my shadow friends now that summer days are summer nights?
As the morning dew is taunted by the light.
Healing is never perfect but the sounds of God will mend our souls.
In my hands over hands my will to breathe my last breath no more
Verse 1
I’m sick and tired of living in the dark and painful past
This moment could be different if my trauma didn’t cast
An overbearing shadow that consumes me day and night
I have to find my own way, won’t give in without a fight
I want to be myself, there’s only emptiness inside
I’m sick and tired of hearing other’s voices in my mind
Telling me who I’m supposed to be, how I’m supposed to feel
I have to figure out just who I am and what is real
Hook:
If the future’s always better,
Then what always pulling me back?
To what I could never do
To everything I lack
Now I’m better than yesterday
finally finding my own way
Doing what I want to do
Saying what I need to say
Finally saying what I need to say
Verse 2:
I feel lost can’t find my way out
Starting over seems impossible
Functionality a scary route
Mistakes they seem unstoppable
I have to take control or no one else ever will
The terror all consuming like a jagged little pill
Can’t breathe in my own skin I know I have to let it go
It’s okay to ask for help don’t have to do it on my own
Hook:
If the future’s always better,
Then what always pulling me back?
To what I could never do
To everything I lack
Now I’m better than yesterday
finally finding my own way
Doing what I want to do
Saying what I need to say
Finally saying what I need to say
It’s okay to ask for help don’t have to do it on my own
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Extra lyrics:
I feel lost, I don’t know how to find my way out
I don’t know how to start all over again
I feel too scared to function
I feel like all I do is make mistakes
If I don’t take control, no one else will, and then what
The terror consumes me from the inside out
I can’t breathe in my own skin
I don’t know how to start over
where do I to begin
I’m lost in the terror from the inside out
I just make mistakes, consumed in my own doubt
But if I don’t take control, I thought that no one else would
You don’t have to be so afraid of other people, they can be good
You’re allowed to ask for help, I don’t have to do it all by myself